DAMN it was good and I want some more!

I have a young friend. Actually, more like an associate. I'm 23 and he will be 21 in a few weeks. I met him last year and I have entertained myself by flirting with him via text message (again, text messages are the Devil - at least when I'm involved). He goes to school in LA and visits my hometown about once a month. He's always been a gentleman and is super nice but I never could get around the age thing. I know its only a three year difference, but I know how I was three years ago and my maturity level is way higher than it was then. Anyway, I alluded to the possibility of him getting some for a while, primarily cause it was fun to have someone flirt with me. He would try to see me every time he visited and I would politely decline or find some way out of it. He would still check on me and send a message on a regular basis and stayed sweet.

My only complaint has been his age. After all, he's tall, attractive, polite, sweet, in school, and has never showed me a side of him that I didn't like. But I think my obsession with his age eventually turned him off a bit and instead of the "pursuing you" mode, he moved on to the "friend" mode when dealing with me.

Anyway, I decided to see him the next time he came to town and that happened sooner than later. He sent me a message last week to let me know that he was in town. I told him that I had plans for the weekend and would call him when I could see him. He thought it was my usual blow off but I decided to go see him before my plans. When I arrived at his house, he was in full gentleman mode, hugging me and telling me I looked nice. He mentioned something about a shower and I playfully asked if I could watch. Why did I do that? He called me out about it and had me go upstairs to do exactly that. I went into the restroom in full "I'm grown and you're not" mode and watched him undress. This dude made me blush. He had it, a LOT of it, if you know what I mean. All of a sudden he wasn't young and he wasn't sweet - he was just sexy as hell and I wanted him. We kissed, we hugged and we couldn't do anything because of feminine reasons.

DAMN. DAMN. DAMN.

He completely manned up (def. "to man up": get a swagger about yourself, get confident all of a sudden, get crunk, etc..) on me. I was shocked. Dude was making me hot and driving me nuts and I couldn't get at him the way I wanted to. I hadn't felt that way in a loooooonnnnngggg time. Eventually we had to stop and I told him that I would see him again before he left, hopefully.

Anyway, a few day later the feminine issue came to an end and I called him to finish where we left off. The sex was soooooo good and all I could do was go to sleep afterwards. He had a look of satisfaction on his face and just HAD to say, "that's how the young men do it." Whateva.

I can't believe I slept on dick that good for an entire year! And I don't know if I'll ever get a taste of it again.

DAMN. DAMN. DAMN.

I don't think our relationship will change though. We're associates and it will probably stay that way. But it will take a serious amount of control for me to stay off of him from now on. And the possibility of me ever missing another one of his visits is slim to none. I know I sound sprung, but DAMN it was good and I want some more!